10 days left

So, I began to realize that my summer is slowly coming to an end. We are almost in August!

What happened to all the goals I wanted to complete this summer? What were they...

1) Move into own place- DONE
2) Practice Guitar and become amazing at it- FAILED
3) Lose weight- Working on it... slowly
4) Read Bible and find a church- FAILED
5) Work on writing novel- FAILED
6) Finish knitting David's scarf- Coming along
7) Learn to sew- DONE

So, what has been my excuse in those areas I haven't accomplished? After all, David hasn't been here for nearly a month. It's not like I was busy with him.
I DID have a dilemna with the apartment. That took a lot our of me. But, it's getting better.
I realized this...

• I'm lazy at really wanting to learn how to play the guitar well.
• I've become uninterested in the church, not God though...
• I've been lazy in working on my novel.

Oh... wait a minute here... I know what happened! I know!

I got comcast.

Curse it! Curse it with everything inside of me! It rots your brain, I swear! When I didn't have cabel, I was reading, knitting, studying. Now... I let my brain slowly fry as my eyes stare at that screen that requires no thought.

Sigh. Enough is enough. No more cabel. I'm saving my $50 a month...

Thief

Last night I did a load of laundry in the community laundry room. I had accidentally left it in the dryer over night. This morning, I went to the laundry room to retrieve my clothes. They were in a pile on the folding table. Someone dumped them there to use my dryer. I didn't think much of it. About a half hour later, in my apartment, I was folding the laundry to put away and I notice I only had 2 socks. Only 2. I swear I put at least 4 pairs of socks in the washer. Why was there only 2??

My only thoughts: Someone stole my socks.

Who steals socks? I don't know. Maybe it was the creepy older lady I saw in the laundry room as I was getting my clothes. You know, she did kind of look nervous and tense when I walked in. She even tried to say hi to me. Aren't the murderers in crimes usually the first ones to break the silence and say SOMETHING? Even if it's a hello. They can't stand the quiet hum of the dryers. It bothers them. They know they stole from that dryer.

Countdown

So, David has been in Japan for 3 full days now. Not including the day of travel and today. I will openly and fully admit to the difficulties I've had. I find myself feeling okay when I'm out of the house doing things. But, when I get back to the apartment, I'm reminded of its emptiness every time. Watching TV and movies by myself and not being able to rant to him about a busy day at work have been struggles. But, surprisingly (or not surprisingly) my greatest loss has been making dinner for 1 person. I didn't realize how much I love cooking for David. Let me be honest with a confession here, I used to get slightly frustrated when I would be working on making a really good meal-like filet mignon and loaded mashed potatoes-and all I would hear was the music from a video game he was playing in the living room. I used to clench my teeth and think: "Why isn't he in here helping me or setting the table or something?" But now! Oh, I'd die to hear that stupid Zelda music in the back round!
As hard as this trip has been and will be. I definitely feel like we needed this for our relationship to get better. Don't get me wrong, we have an AMAZING relationship. Just ask anyone of our friends. But, the funny thing is, I've learned something. I used to get frustrated when I felt David was taking me for granted over little things (like dinner). But, now I've realized I kind of took him for granted too.
Like he said to me over googletalk last night: "I love you so much. Like waaaay much. Like more than ever before."


Oh, and David is not completely lazy in the kitchen. He's pretty handy at cutting lettuce and setting the table now ;]